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IMMA GONNA DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





















O hai...
Well....How can I explain this...
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The attempts to get my grades up are not going so well...
and to make it worse...
I'm probably going to be transfered to another school district...
and if that happens...I'll loose everything...
My computer...My phone...My games...
...Everything...


Woopdedoo...
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Pushing that aside for a bit...
UPDATES
-Now obssessed with Kingdom Hearts, I've studied almost everything about it, even the unreleased games.
-Still trying to get grades up, failing and succeeding at the same time...
-I'm loosing my friends one by one, I only have a few friends to hang out with, the rest of the day I'm alone.
-My Roleplays are getting wacked up ever since Kingdom Hearts came in...Nabrixan is a tricky bastard...
-Every second, I'm loosing my ability to summon Saphire or DSL, they seem to be put to sleep. Nabrixan is taking my abilities away...
-I've been feeling very strange lately, I'm getting art blocks more often even though I have a ton of things to draw...
-The requests and art trades I'm doing are getting done as soon as they can, I don't really have alot of time on my hands now...
-I've also have been having strange dreams and visions, they're different from the ones I usually have to predict the future...I wonder what's going on...
-My cravings have also changed alot, I'm not eating much anymore and I'm depriving myself of my daily needs...I don't even feel hungry even though I know I am...
-Saving money for something I don't know, something's just telling me to save, this stuff is getting pretty freaky...
-My attitude is also changing, I seem to be depressed, confident, crazy, guilty, lonely all at the same time, I also get sick from time to time...
-I also cry for no reason, I seem to be getting more sensitive to things again after trying soo hard to overcome it. It's like Saphire's emotions and visions are rushing through my body...I even cry to a song called Santuary/Passion by Utada. It's like I'm remembering the wrong things...
-I seem to sleep more, or seem to want more sleep, it's like my body wants to sleep forever...I feel sleep deprived endlessly...
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This is much of what I could get down without breaking down...
My life is ruined!!!
Why do I have to be such a lazy idiot!!
My habits changed so dramatically...It's all a blur...
I'm failing...I'm feel like I'm dieing...I'm just...just....


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...hate this...

I came to my friends for help, but instead...they just...ignored me...
I seem to feel like...I don't have anyone...
Just me and my dumb imagination...

I've also lost most of my "friends"...
All because one of them overreacted...
I'm not even going to say her name...

A battle even started when that happened, I was devistated and confused, I even refused to talk until I figured out what happened, so I asked one of my other friends to back me up while I tried to put the pieces back together...though it wasn't enough time...

My life keeps getting worse by the minute...
I'm only allowed on the computer to listen to music so I could Roleplay...
I came here to tell you guys how I'm doing...
...If you ever cared...
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KINGDOM HEARTS
Well if you couldn't tell, I got obssessed with KH a while ago, I still am...Though I figured out, that it was a big mistake...
I created my Nobody named Nabrixan, she's number 15 in the Organization for a specific reason that cant be revealed yet...She possesses the element of Shadow, wields a Shadow-Enhanced Keyblade, and is the Embodiment of Darkness...
But because I created her, I've been getting strange voices in my head telling me to destroy her, but I didn't know why, so I refused...Then, I later relised why, but I believe...it's too late...
Nabrixan is taking my abilities to control myself and is taking over Imag and myself, I don't even remember doing most things my friends mention...She puts my characters into deep sleeps in order for me not to summon them...
She keeps hurting my from the inside, she's the reason I've changed so much...I want to stop this, but I'm too late...
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Oh...and about my Halloween...
It was great...
Dressed up as Xion, got High on White Chocolate, stayed up all night.
Good times.

Nyeh....XP
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I got the game Kingdom Hearts 358/2 Days
I just damn LOVE it!
Though I already beat it D:
Looking foward to getting Birth By Sleep too!
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I think I ran out of things to say...
Ohh well...


I miss you guys SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!
Though I'm still in Ban-Mode
I wish I could come back...
But I'm a dumbass, so I probably screw up again and Fail myself to hell DX
Hope you guys are doing alright...
You know I worry about you guys all the time, right?
I always wonder what you're doing...or drawing...
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And it seems alot has happened while I was gone, huh?
Meh...
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Well...back to Roleplaying and sobbing my eyes out!
SEE YA!!

PEACE OUT!